at twelve years old i buried you
with all the hatred that you sent
at thirteen they all cursed no more
you rose above with no repent
and bore a child who writhed and tore
to get from all the hate and lies
who ripped apart your d.n.a
but kept the darkness in his eyes.
compare thee to the beautiful
but don't begrudge the second best
just watch your warm feet pace the ground
that put his sweet young heart to rest.
at seven years i formed a dream
i'm scared of turning seventeen
when at sixteen i learnt alone
of people that will sink or swim
and those who watch me swim along
and snatch my legs and drag me in.
so give me one more cold enigma
in the form of sinless man
and i will sit and suss you out
and feel no pity in my plan
do you think you have seen an evil?
wait until you pass my mind
i can crush my own emotion
i can make myself unkind
i HATE and hurt and target you
watch the damage i can do
just say that word so i can lie
and watch your little rich heart die
i don't want and i don't de